I think i've developed a taste for Metallica.
*headbang*
*headbang*
mmmmm. yum.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Expressionism.
How can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
Just watch the world go round...
Fell from grace
Walking empty hearted here
Cold wind blows
Hole in the heart
Just shoot it, tear it apart
Pick up what remains,
watch it stress and strain.
Once out you can never get back
No matter how far, they reject
As much as you wish
Theres no better dish
Then the one that lets you reflect.
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
Just watch the world go round...
Fell from grace
Walking empty hearted here
Cold wind blows
Hole in the heart
Just shoot it, tear it apart
Pick up what remains,
watch it stress and strain.
Once out you can never get back
No matter how far, they reject
As much as you wish
Theres no better dish
Then the one that lets you reflect.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
AHM
On the eve of 9-11, i sincerely thank god that nobody thought of doing anything funny at the padang after the half marathon. Because im pretty sure if they did half of the people there would just have flopped over and asked for more.
Well, at least i finished it.
Well, at least i finished it.
Monday, August 22, 2005
Why?
I cant focus. Ouch. Running haywire. Where is the. Discipline. Desire. Love. No will. No time. No skill?
Can't make myself do things without a major force of will. Can barely get myself to cut my hair, much less exercise regularly. if once a month is regular. Bah. What happened?
My willpower is slowly draining away, being sapped by the insiduous taint of complacency? By the devilish tentacles of apathy? Or does it stem from a lack of direction?
Procrastination and masturbation are the same thing, because essentially you're just screwing yourself.
Well, maybe after a while this might all blow off. Who knows. Or things would come to a complete impasse and screw up my life in some way or other. i just know that i have to "wake up my idea".
On the interesting side... Hypothesis that Rot Spreads from the Top was true. It is infinitely visible...
Well at least...
Finally completed Guild Wars. haha, 97hrs. w0000t... Addicted? Nooo.... thats 500hrs in 2 months. Now thats addiction. im only 200...
But is that any consolation?
Now Playing-
Black Eyed Peas- Don't Lie
Ella Fitzgerald - Lets call the whole thing off
Guild Wars (w00000t... LOL ROFLMAO)
Can't make myself do things without a major force of will. Can barely get myself to cut my hair, much less exercise regularly. if once a month is regular. Bah. What happened?
My willpower is slowly draining away, being sapped by the insiduous taint of complacency? By the devilish tentacles of apathy? Or does it stem from a lack of direction?
Procrastination and masturbation are the same thing, because essentially you're just screwing yourself.
Well, maybe after a while this might all blow off. Who knows. Or things would come to a complete impasse and screw up my life in some way or other. i just know that i have to "wake up my idea".
On the interesting side... Hypothesis that Rot Spreads from the Top was true. It is infinitely visible...
Well at least...
Finally completed Guild Wars. haha, 97hrs. w0000t... Addicted? Nooo.... thats 500hrs in 2 months. Now thats addiction. im only 200...
But is that any consolation?
Now Playing-
Black Eyed Peas- Don't Lie
Ella Fitzgerald - Lets call the whole thing off
Guild Wars (w00000t... LOL ROFLMAO)
Friday, August 12, 2005
They can't take that away from me
I wont let one in on a sorrowful note
Though by tomorrow you're gone
The song is ended but as the songwriter wrote
the melody lingers on
They may take you from me
I'll miss your fond caress
But though they take you from me
i'll still posess...
The way you wear your hat
the way you sip your tea
the memory of all that
no,no, they cant take that away from me
the way your smile just beams,
the way you sing off key
the way you haunt my dreams,
no no they cant take that away from me
we may never never meet again on the bumpy road to love
still i'll always, always keep the memory of
the way you hold your knife
the way we dance till three
the way you changed my life
no, no they cant take that away from me
no,
they cant take that away from me!
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Musings...
Things i plucked out from assorted musings, sitting in an ops room, confined within the area for 2 days...
Hypothesis of Leadership by example
Rot spreads from the top.
Hypothesis of responsibility
Not just to do the right things, but to do the right things right.
Psychosomatic impressions- Mind over body, live life the way you think you should.
Idiosyncracies- Manners, attitude, arrogance.
Ideals- An officer and a gentlemen.
Decoding? do it yourself you lazy bastards...
Hypothesis of Leadership by example
Rot spreads from the top.
Hypothesis of responsibility
Not just to do the right things, but to do the right things right.
Psychosomatic impressions- Mind over body, live life the way you think you should.
Idiosyncracies- Manners, attitude, arrogance.
Ideals- An officer and a gentlemen.
Decoding? do it yourself you lazy bastards...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Firsts!
Hmmm. Elation.
Many firsts today. Its the first time my OC asked me to go early to facilitate handover. And he didnt appear until most of it was over. Taking advantage of his 2nd in command? I think its trust that i can do what needs to be done.
First time i gave an ops backbrief. Didnt get flamed. So it was a relief. Guess i knew my stuff.
first time i got praised for good work (presentation!) So i DID know my stuff. =)
Hard work + effort = job well done.
Guess some things dont change even in this dystopic place.
*disclaimer- was commented about talking too fast and beating around the bush a little. But hey, who's perfect?
Additional- this is the first positive post in a LOOOONG time...
Many firsts today. Its the first time my OC asked me to go early to facilitate handover. And he didnt appear until most of it was over. Taking advantage of his 2nd in command? I think its trust that i can do what needs to be done.
First time i gave an ops backbrief. Didnt get flamed. So it was a relief. Guess i knew my stuff.
first time i got praised for good work (presentation!) So i DID know my stuff. =)
Hard work + effort = job well done.
Guess some things dont change even in this dystopic place.
*disclaimer- was commented about talking too fast and beating around the bush a little. But hey, who's perfect?
Additional- this is the first positive post in a LOOOONG time...
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Sin City
Aaargh!!!! What is it going to take for me to watch this show!!! Looks great. but R21. And my friends cant seem to be able to decide on any timing to meet to watch.
Jessica Alba is.... ok maybe hot. I dunno. I rather Penelope Cruz... and that SEXY voice...
Jessica Alba is.... ok maybe hot. I dunno. I rather Penelope Cruz... and that SEXY voice...
Friday, July 29, 2005
??? interesting.
Did the following quiz... had the result-
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
Aphrodite/Eros
How true can this be? Looking for "The one", for sure. Its hard to find someone like that, but i guess i'll keep trying.
Meanwhile its a really really corny intepretation......
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
Aphrodite/Eros
How true can this be? Looking for "The one", for sure. Its hard to find someone like that, but i guess i'll keep trying.
Meanwhile its a really really corny intepretation......
Friday, July 22, 2005
Interesting post...
Muahaha.
http://rockson.blogspot.com/2005/07/nkf-boss-got-cheebye-12-months-bonus.html
Surfin' the waves of the Blogosphere...
http://rockson.blogspot.com/2005/07/nkf-boss-got-cheebye-12-months-bonus.html
Surfin' the waves of the Blogosphere...
Slave to the Music
Two weeks ago... tragedy struck!
I walked into my office, plugged in my MP3 player, and to my horror, discovered a foul change- sometime over the weekend, the speakers had burned out!!! WHERE WAS I GOING TO TUNE MYSELF INTO MY MUSIC??? This set a tone for a disturbing week... the office seemed so quiet... Like disaster waiting to strike. I cannot vouch for myself, but i think i was quite cranky over that episode... Until i found out- It was only the main speaker that was damaged- the other one could plug to my Zen without any problems. A little soft, but any sound is better than nothing at all.
And once again, all was right with the world...
Also, i just realised... Im allergic to people with bad manners. Not rashes and scratchy allergic, but RAGING FURIOUS AND MURDEROUS allergic. I think its a good thing. I like to help people. But people who don't even bother to ask before taking things, people who hang up on you because they think they're busy and cannot afford to spend time to say "sorry, i need to go, bye"... Now those are people who i have a bone to pick with. Irritating bastards. Go live in your own world, get out of mine.
I walked into my office, plugged in my MP3 player, and to my horror, discovered a foul change- sometime over the weekend, the speakers had burned out!!! WHERE WAS I GOING TO TUNE MYSELF INTO MY MUSIC??? This set a tone for a disturbing week... the office seemed so quiet... Like disaster waiting to strike. I cannot vouch for myself, but i think i was quite cranky over that episode... Until i found out- It was only the main speaker that was damaged- the other one could plug to my Zen without any problems. A little soft, but any sound is better than nothing at all.
And once again, all was right with the world...
Also, i just realised... Im allergic to people with bad manners. Not rashes and scratchy allergic, but RAGING FURIOUS AND MURDEROUS allergic. I think its a good thing. I like to help people. But people who don't even bother to ask before taking things, people who hang up on you because they think they're busy and cannot afford to spend time to say "sorry, i need to go, bye"... Now those are people who i have a bone to pick with. Irritating bastards. Go live in your own world, get out of mine.
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Temporary Rationality
Again, its been a while. i hate blogging once a month. Should do it more often.
Jack-style...
Rumours,BattHQ.Goddamn whore of this fckin Batt. TES wargaming funfunfun...didnt tell because its not winning or losing that matters, its how hard they fight. Shouldnt have bothered to wake up and work last week, it didnt make sense. Friend recovered from heat exhaustion, worryworryworry. We didnt know until it was almost over. So sorry... Streetwear. Quality over quantity. Shopping and Fcking. Love and sex are two different things. FullMetalAlchemist. Law of Conservation. To receive, you must first give something of equal value. Thats life. Goals. where are mine? Guild Wars. 180hrs in 55 days. Waste, obsession, or just fun? Goals again. Why am i doing what i am doing? Someone told me a suprising answer,which i didnt expect him to be able to. Even assholes have a direction. Wheres mine? God no im not suicidal. Far from it. I have been blessed with many more options.
Jack-style...
Rumours,BattHQ.Goddamn whore of this fckin Batt. TES wargaming funfunfun...didnt tell because its not winning or losing that matters, its how hard they fight. Shouldnt have bothered to wake up and work last week, it didnt make sense. Friend recovered from heat exhaustion, worryworryworry. We didnt know until it was almost over. So sorry... Streetwear. Quality over quantity. Shopping and Fcking. Love and sex are two different things. FullMetalAlchemist. Law of Conservation. To receive, you must first give something of equal value. Thats life. Goals. where are mine? Guild Wars. 180hrs in 55 days. Waste, obsession, or just fun? Goals again. Why am i doing what i am doing? Someone told me a suprising answer,which i didnt expect him to be able to. Even assholes have a direction. Wheres mine? God no im not suicidal. Far from it. I have been blessed with many more options.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
God its been a while...
Man. Im lost.
What am i doing? Why am i doing this?
Its hard to record confusion and a lack of purpose. But im trying my best. I've lost focus. Thats all i have to report. NoMen. NoReason. NoLove. NoLife. The only constant thing that has remained is my muSic. Its not a question of addiction, its a question of enJOYment. Its the one thing that keeps me sANe. I cant hide from MY lying eyes. Where is the pASSion? the CONviction? I feel like im living a LIE. Indecisiveness and inaction hides a lack of MOTIVATION. So what if i go out and enjoy? What am i relaxing from? I have yet to convince myself that i deserve the rest that i deserve to get. MeaningLESS. Servitude through paper pushing. Superficial friends. Morality and magic pens. Lust for sale, sold! Long talks with friends who were always there, but i had ignored. To you guys- im sorry. Im not as good a friend as i want to be. Thanks for always being there. I have no GOD. I have no FAITH. I have no reason to carry out my job. Or its not so much in my mind that its at the tips of my fingers. Need to think. Not BURNout. Not STRESS. Its...
Direction. where am i heading?
No sense in raving. No sense in ranting. I need MY time. There are more ways to enjoy yourself besides a drunken frenzy, or dark and wild places. Sort myself out. Why should i care, why should i do? Thats something i need to answer to myself.
What am i doing? Why am i doing this?
Its hard to record confusion and a lack of purpose. But im trying my best. I've lost focus. Thats all i have to report. NoMen. NoReason. NoLove. NoLife. The only constant thing that has remained is my muSic. Its not a question of addiction, its a question of enJOYment. Its the one thing that keeps me sANe. I cant hide from MY lying eyes. Where is the pASSion? the CONviction? I feel like im living a LIE. Indecisiveness and inaction hides a lack of MOTIVATION. So what if i go out and enjoy? What am i relaxing from? I have yet to convince myself that i deserve the rest that i deserve to get. MeaningLESS. Servitude through paper pushing. Superficial friends. Morality and magic pens. Lust for sale, sold! Long talks with friends who were always there, but i had ignored. To you guys- im sorry. Im not as good a friend as i want to be. Thanks for always being there. I have no GOD. I have no FAITH. I have no reason to carry out my job. Or its not so much in my mind that its at the tips of my fingers. Need to think. Not BURNout. Not STRESS. Its...
Direction. where am i heading?
No sense in raving. No sense in ranting. I need MY time. There are more ways to enjoy yourself besides a drunken frenzy, or dark and wild places. Sort myself out. Why should i care, why should i do? Thats something i need to answer to myself.
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