Vivid dream.
I was at my grandmothers house. My Uncle and Aunty with one son now had two children, the second one a girl.
I was playing around with a guitar there.
Somehow, someway, i ended up trying to play it behind my head.
Damn. Now i cant remember the rest.
And i woke from a daze with a sudden craving to hear Tell Laura I Love Her.
Wierd.

Horoscope

Virgo
The good news is that your career is about to take a very exciting turn -- the bad news is that it might also take up a lot more of your personal time, at least for a while. Your past work issues are all water under the bridge, and you have learned some very valuable lessons. Things are much more under your control than ever before. You have proved yourself capable of the responsibilities you have been given, and everyone is ready to see what you have to offer!

woot?

On a side note,
http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/sweettators/

A Divine Comedy?

Sometimes it feels like im going through a story. Like a classic one by Dante Aligheri, his Divine Comedy. But instead of walking thorough hell, im experiencing it. Without a guide, taking things as they come.

Or perhaps the guide is the conscience? The manners of living that brought you to where you are and guides you to where you will go.

There are lessons learnt along the way. I learned the value of form over substance. Of people over tasks. You can focus on the tasks and hope people come to do it. Or focus on the people and hope the tasks get done on time.

The next hurdle being surviving my mid terms. So much for 4.6 in 2 sems. The S/U option is closing tomorrow. Time to decide if my 2 non core will pull me up or down...

Dammit. Why do these things always come packed like that?

Next goal - 4.6 in 2 sems. Ok. Maybe a little longer. 3 sems.

Bite the bullet and the gun will take care of itself. Life moves on.

So tell me something i don't already know

So not having people come when they should be coming is a problem?
Wow, how long did it take for that to sink in?
It feels bad that people don't turn up when they are supposed to, and you planned for them to turn up?
Oooh, well, try feeling that almost every day for 2 months.
What, you are trying to tell me that it feels worse now because its only like 2 days to the event?
Of course it feels worse. Uncertainty always makes it worse. But tell me - What do you expect me to do about it?

I can scold. I can rant. But if attitude is fucked up in the first place, what do you want me to do? Blame the parents?

I can only lead by example, come on time, do what i say, say what i do.

The rest is up to them.

And apparently, they're not up to it.

2 more days of hell. And my phone's knocked out. If any of my friends are reading this, pray that my sanity does not disintegrate, my temper does not flare, and my tolerance does not break. I have never been so pissed off in my life.

And why? Because i expected more from people like them. But *sarcastic* no..........

Head Cuttin' Duel

One of the most gripping pieces of cinema i have ever seen.

Therapy

Theres something exhilirating about going onto a stage and just playing punk songs.
The energy is nothing to be scoffed at.
KH was a fantastic frontman, really stole the show.
We SHOULD do that again.
But with more rock. hahaha
sleep eludes me still.
i shall chase it.

Who thanks the thankless?

I do.

V-day is so shit. bah.

Clausius, Clapeyron, Raoult = headache^3

Sleeping at three seems to be a bad thing. Hmmm, i wonder why. *sarcastically*

Scientists prove that lack of sleep affects brain function. Rats who were kept awake for 72 hours had noticeably reduced activities in certain parts of the brains.

So tell us something we don't know.

Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise?

Something worth thinking about.

Sleeping at 3am is baaaaaaaaad.

It means the time im most alert is at 1am.

and it takes me more coffee to get through the day.

gah. need to reduce coffee intake. im overdependant.

Inspiration

GOD.

Selected anecdotes

You Know You're Drinking Too Much Coffee When..

You answer the door before people knock.

You speed walk in your sleep.

You sleep with your eyes open.

The only time you're standing still is during an earthquake.

You lick your coffeepot clean.

Your eyes stay open when you sneeze.

The nurse needs a scientific calculator to take your pulse.

You're so jittery that people use your hands to blend their margaritas.

Cocaine is a downer.

You've worn out the handle on your favorite mug.

You go to AA meetings just for the free coffee.

You walk twenty miles on your treadmill before you realize it's not plugged in.

You forget to unwrap candy bars before eating them.

You've built a miniature city out of little plastic stirrers.

People get dizzy just watching you.

You've worn the finish off your coffee table.

Starbucks owns the mortgage on your house.

Your taste buds are so numb you could drink your lava lamp.

Instant coffee takes too long.

When someone says. "How are you?", you say, "Good to the last drop."

You want to be cremated just so you can spend the rest of eternity in a coffee can.

Your lips are permanently stuck in the sipping position.

You can outlast the Energizer bunny.

You short out motion detectors.

You don't even wait for the water to boil anymore.

Your nervous twitch registers on the Richter scale.

Your three favorite things in life are...coffee before, coffee during and coffee after.

Your lover uses soft lights, romantic music, and a glass of iced coffee to get you in the mood.

You can't even remember your second cup.

You think CPR stands for "Coffee Provides Resuscitation."

Your first-aid kit contains two pints of coffee with an I.V. hookup.

credits to http://www.koffeekorner.com/toomuchcoffee.htm

And life moves on.

Keep it tight.

Keep it real.

You Came - Kim Wilde

After a long search, i finally found this song!

Someone I know is staring at me
And when I look into her eyes
I see a girl that I used to be
I hardly recognise
Cos in the space of a year
Ive watched the old me disappear
All of the things I once held precious
Just dont mean anything anymore
Cos suddenly

You came, and changed the way I feel
No one could love you more
Because you came and turned my life around
No one could take your place

Ive never felt good with permanent things
Now I dont want anything to change
You cant imagine the joy you bring
My life wont be the same
And Ill be there when you call
Ill pick you up if you should fall
Cos I have never felt such inspiration
Nobody else ever gave me more because

You came, and changed the way I feel
No one could love you more
Because you came and turned my life around
No one could take your place

I watch you sleep in the still of the night
You look so pretty when you dream
So many people just go through life
Holding back, they dont say what they mean
But its easy for me
Since you came
No one could love you more
Because you came and turned my life around
No one could take your place
You came, and changed the way I feel
No one could love you more
Because you came and turned my life around
No one could take your place

Hmmm. Mambo, mambo, mambo... where is my mambo......
Something interesting - Besides singing, this artiste is an accomplished gardener. How cool is that?

To Fly

I think that such a dream
will not return again
and it painted my hands
and face blue
and unexpectedly the wind carried me fast
and made me fly in the infinite sky.

To fly oh oh
To sing oh oh
In the blue painted blue
happy to be up there

and flying, flying happy
I find myself higher
higher than the sun
while the world slowly, slowly gets farther
away from me
a sweet music played
only for me

To fly oh
To sing oh oh oh oh
In the blue painted blue
happy to be up there.

This explains some things though. I'm too bloody nice. How apt could that be.

Shagged.

Somehow, work doesn't take the edge off the pain anymore.

I need to relearn how i did that last time.

My heart nearly broke when i saw that photo.
A picture perfect frame - oh so fine
A glimpse of your face on that screen
But where was mine?
Fate is cruel in times so near
joy uprooted, spring unsighted, time after time
to leave me behind
while others
walk the line

"Hey, don't look so tired lei..."

I work sets from 8pm to midnight almost every night.
I'm taking 6 modules.
I have a deadline thats approaching as fast as paparazzi after Princess Diana's car.
I wake up in the morning at 7.30 on average, sleep at 2am daily.
My timetable looks like a nightmare.
Four out of my 5 days a week are practically 9-5.
My cap score is on the wrong end of the bell curve and i still want to go overseas.
Hence the daily grind to push myself up.
I have an team of 11, an effective team of 5.
I need a daily fix of 5 cups of coffee on average to keep me reasonably pleasant and active.

How the FUCK do you not expect me to look tired?